Ken is working a couple of long night shifts this weekend, so I'm left to my own devices. I'm sure I can scare up some trouble.
And for all you wise-asses out there, I am not the sleaze on parade, and I'm not talking about scaring up that kind of trouble! The picture has nothing to do with Ken working nights, so stop thinking that. It's from the website of Ashley Madison. Have you heard about this? It's a dating service, but not your average bear. It's a service for people who want to have an affair. In fact, their slogan is "Life is short. Have an affair™," and they guarantee that if you use their service, you'll have an affair to remember or they'll give you your money back! Wow, what a deal!
Yuck. That just seems really sordid to me, and sort of cold and calculating. I'm not going to be overly judgemental, because in a previous life, I was no angel, and neither was my ex. But it seems to me that affairs are things that you sort of fall into...there may be weakness and dishonesty involved, but I think most people don't set out to purposefully have an affair.
In reading some of the testimonials, most people talk about being stuck in a loveless marriage and trying to fulfill their needs in other ways. That's a convenient excuse, but it's still just an excuse. Have the balls to stand up and say this isn't working, then do something to solve the problem, or cut bait and be done with it. I suppose some people get off on the illicit nature of sneaking around, but that takes way too much energy, and sooner or later you'll probably get caught. (Or maybe you'll feel guilty enough that you'll confess. I honestly had no idea that anything had gone on, but after I asked for a divorce and my ex moved out, he called me up and told me that he believed God was punishing him because he cheated on me...a month after we got married, when he was in Officer's Training School and I was staying with my parents. How charming!)
Why not just end whatever unhappy relationship you're in and then move on to one that you'll find more fulfilling? Everyone makes stupid mistakes, but hopefully they're a part of foolish youth. I know that I would rather cut my own foot off than hurt and betray Ken in that way. I really don't get the thought process behind someone using a service like this, although it seems that they're using it quite a bit.
With Ken working nights, I suppose I'll mess around a bit tonight. I think I'll burn a CD, I'll read the latest issue of Time, I'll play with the cat (although I suspect he's actually playing with me), and if I'm feeling really crazy, I think I'll watch "Road House." Ahhh, what a Siren I am!